A Fair Heart's Grievances

It is the death by hands
Vacuum aspiration,dilation and curettage
Down the red tunnel,it goes the metal rods
The numbness,pain,groan.

The cannula vacuumed
The future dreams
Empty vessels the cores damaged
All lay still,paralysed.

Mine was the fault to bear
A pain so ruthless to wear
And the hands for help
No white gown could hear.

Here you have no cause to tears
Everything done,clean
Whatever pain is yours
After the haemorrhage.


The pain travelled from depths
Through the tunnel up the chariots
The fathomless pits of wisdom
There it turned silver drops.


The fair hand raised to heaven
Grievances were her own
The dark nights,endless corridors
And the rattling in the cupboard.


As a part of divine purpose
Or vengeance of an untold past
The mourning and howling
Remnants of a wanton fate.

Return

But ah! my soul I found you
In your romantic youth
Too much drunk in worthless passions
When I taught you right things
Yet was not I strong enough.

Before I realised your follies
Or taught myself to be patient
I looked back at that heavenly bliss
Which I longed to have for ever
My wandering soul  kept waiting.

Says my conscience with confidence
That my drunken soul will return
When the magic youth sheds its spells
I  pray leave me my soul
To have a moment of eternal union.

In time

In time we see that dew drops
The blooming buds touched
The sweetest flower in time,we see
Does appear and fade away.

With cool breeze the strong bud
In time does move
The hardest heart in time does yield
To cupid's magic spells.

Where fully bloomed flower
There comes a fiend
Where deep passion poisonous turns
There arouses its doom.

What folly does it cause
My heart to weep
That angel time"ll not wipe
And touch to smile.

Time causes a new born bud
What care does it not ease?
In time I see  that I love
In both pleasure and content.

Lonely

Loneliness you be hailed
Thrice betrayed he lay
Not that he a fool
But by no heart known.

Wretched soul,craving for aeons
Had no chance to revel
Though at times elated
Hell only can afford.

Lived a butcher's life
No glory to claim
Nor does a worthy ancestry
And a decent home.

Rather be to hell
Than a longing so intense
As it corrodes will
To  fathoms he drown.

Feenix

Mysteries

Shadows

Last Leaf

The radiated tortoise

The radiated tortoise.After learnin Fengshui from  my brother I couldn't help keepin a tortoise in my room.And Yes !it had influenced my career.

Lady in red

Yet to be framed.The colours makes me feel life.I dedicate this to my dear DC(my brother)who is the one whe opened before me the wonders of colours.Hadn't turned back after that.We're kindred spirits.He knows me more than me myself.

Unfolded

He bought me a book on painting'n i still have very sweet feelings aboutThe silent but strong inspiration he keeps in the fathoms of his heart.I cant help bowin with gratitude towards him.

Longings

After the birth of Aby.I made little strokes at the short intervals of 28 day old's sleep.It was such painful strokes.He didn't let me complete five strokes a day.still i continued.so much was my drive to create.

Set Free

Have a lot to say about this.The one I painted when my deeply felt emotions were set free.I couldn't stop finishin this in a week.Created before marriage.now placed near our stair.

An Autumn Breeze

Had I swept over

This cool breeze

When to the roots

I shatter.

All pains I shiver

Is this not meant

In the autumn

I wonder.

Let those who grieve

Abide by this breeze

But with steadfast steps

Its better.

But I must endure

Lay in joy upon

Adoring with heart and soul

I remain.

From morn to night

I delight

No human heart could dcipher

Its mystery.

Leaves are fallen

Buds unfurled

Twisting and turning

I surrender.

Breatheless I shall die

Or faint,this immortal pain

Wrapped myself in rosy robes

I defend.

Growing insane,haunting waves

Transgressed ,to the breeze

I submit...

An Idiot Dream

Once I had an idiot dream

My two big eyes in a prison doom

And a handsome youth in front

My eyes to look at was all he want.

I wonder,this handsome form rude

A villain,a wretch lost to pride

My eyes lost to thought

Was asked as he sought

No wonder,my eyes betrayed

My artless heart and mind unchained

Cupid’s shaft struck my eyes

Soon soon it cried in ties.

My tearful eyes he could’nt bear

He set me free to my dear

But to fire my eyes went a wild eternal fire did I lent.

Eversince my eyes wander my sweet goldencage to enter.

                                                   With Love

In time we see that dew drops
The blooming bud touched
The sweetest flower in time,we see
Does appear and fade away

With cool breeze the strong bud
In time does move
The hardest heart in time does yield
To cupid's magic spells.

Where fully bloomed flower
There comes a fiend
Where deep passion poisonous turns
There arouses its doom.

What folly does it cause
My heart to weep
That angel time'll wipe
And touch to smile.

Time causes a new born bud
What care does it not ease?
In time I see that I love
In both pleasure and content.

RETURN


But ah!my soul I found You
In your romantic youth
Too much drunk in worthless passions
When I taught you right things
Yet was not I strong enough.


Before I realised your follies
Or i taught my soul to be patient
I looked back at that heavenly bliss
Which I long to have for ever
My wandering soul would keep waiting.

Says my conscience with confidence
That my drunken soul will return
When the magic youth sheds its spells
I pray leave me my soul
Could have a moment of eternal union.

How grateful I am for last week's trip to the hills.How lovely they are!!sofresh and green.I had not felt the freshness of air for a long time.when signs of some strange illness annoy me I feel an urge to see the hills and trees and to sprawl on the green grass.Though the stress of duty was there I felt everything so immensely.The impressions are so fine that I am really happy and light at heart.But sometimes in my happiest moments I feel sad.It is always like that.The terrible rollercoaster ride that I go through.The brutality of my senses is always felt.